Okay. Here’s the truth…my husband is really not a slob. He’s more like someone who picks up after himself, but doesn’t see the recycling bin when it’s overflowing, or little smudges of food left on a plate after he washes it. (Note he does wash the dishes after I cook…a big deal!) And although I’ve been accused of being a neat freak, I am not…oh, okay, I really am. I’ve gotten better over the years but can still fall into old habits that wear me out.
So here’s how our conversations about this goes… Me: “I would really appreciate it (see how damned polite I am??) if you would take the recycling out, vacuum occasionally, and sweep the balcony when the leaves pile up.” Him: “I am happy to do these things…just tell me when you need something done.” Me: “No, I don’t want to be your nagging mother; I’d like you to notice stuff and just do it. Him: “Okay.” Then…it’s fine for a while, but before long, amnesia hits and he’s back to what was.
I watch and wait…and wait some more. The grumbling in my head gets louder and the resentment starts to build. So what do I do short of killing him? First, let me tell you that I thank him profusely when he is on top of his chores…AND, I don’t mention it when the job he does isn’t up to my standards. This is in line with the dictum: praise your mate when they do something good; don’t chastise them for falling short of your standards. You gotta let them do it “their way”…even if their way burns little holes in your gut. In the long run, this will pay off.
Another thing to avoid: when something hasn’t been done, you do it yourself. This is an example of the “martyr syndrome” which I happen to be very good at, but which doesn’t work. It teaches him that if he waits long enough I’ll do it, which only reinforces the old pattern. It’s better to let the recycling container overflow until it fills up the house and he has to kick cans and bottles to get into the house to watch the news. Then I’m thinking he’ll notice. I’ve also found that the phrase… “I’m getting resentful,” works wonders. Apparently this is not a state he likes to see me in (I wonder why?) so he usually hops to. It’s important to find your own “trigger” that ignites a call to action.
Let me add, that not everything about our divergent ways is negative. For example, my husband’s less than perfect domestic habits help me to loosen my grip on the obsessive cleaning thing. From a different perspective, he’s actually helping me. And on the other side, his taking more responsibility for our little hovel makes him feel all “grown up,” rather than like a little kid whose mommy takes care of him. He can also see there are definite benefits to doing stuff for me, i.e. he feels good about himself, I’m appreciative and loving. When there is shared responsibility, couples become a real team, For me, it’s also about wanting him to see me, notice and appreciate what I do for us, and lend a hand if I’m over-working.
Let me add this very important caveat: It’s not good for me to simply focus on these things and forget that we love each other and are MORE than these annoyances. I do my best to remember the big picture, which doesn’t mean I don’t want help; it just puts everything in perspective.
Do you have a similar problem? What do you do about it? I would love to hear.
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